What if every moment
Haven't been updating this blog for eons. I can't really say why. Blogger's bloc? In a way I can say why: I only wanted to say the truth in things and the blog was meant for my students. When the way is not clear, what do I really have to say? I resolved to only speak when I can see the real nature of things. There is too much noise around to mislead and confuse us as it is. This is what I am trying to do now. To discover the true nature of things for myself, for the sake of all. It's such a journey. Like travelling in a country with no maps, not speaking the language. It is hard to explain but it preoccupies my waking (and frequently even sleeping moments. . . ) moments. I know I will continue to search many lifetimes if I do not resolve it in this one. It is not a pleasant nor unpleasant task: it is just necessary, like breathing is for life.
With help from others further on this path, I have an inkling on how to do this. You cannot understand it all by thinking. (What a relief! It was giving me a phenomenal headache!) You need to do a lot of letting go -- it becomes so clear. Let go of wants, of prejudices, beliefs, ideology, ideals, perception, -- all you have is bare awareness and truth is realised/actualised, rather than thought out.
No deep thoughts, just widened, continually expanding awareness. . . . Sometimes, in moments, when I am meditating or teaching yoga or not letting myself interrupt myself, everything seems completed and perfect and understood and OKAY.
What if EVERY MOMENT can be like this?
May the great mystery make sunrise in your heart.
